Creative Mystics II: Time has flown since our last CM workshop, where we tuned into the element of Water.... It was, yet again, another remarkable, profound and extremely illuminating experience for me.
I had incredible realisations about deeply ingrained and subconscious aspects of my Shadow and past wounds ... as the creativity and expression flowed, so did the insight, and... the tears... I was able to put into visual form, parts of myself that needed love and healing... The aspect of myself that formed to protect me, that over the years I have scorned and judged. I could see the scars and wounds that still exist there within me, that were inflicted upon my younger self, in some cases by myself, and pour love and appreciation where it was very much needed...
It is hard to articulate, but symbolically it felt like I was pulling the younger version of myself into my arms, thanking her for struggling through, thanking her for surviving, and more than anything letting her know how loved she has always been... how perfect she was despite every inner thought telling her otherwise...
The depth of this was truly unprecedented, especially as I have been working on myself for a very long time. It truly goes to show that this work never ends...and things can bubble up out of the blue, sometimes in ways you could never expect.
And that was only the first half of the session! After this had sunk in,I was able to create another painting, pouring into it the positive elements of what I want to call in for myself.
As always happens with these things, it wasn't what was planned, but it sure is what was needed. And the others took a lot away from it too... I am so grateful and humbled to be doing this work, and to still be learning and evolving every step of the way.
In our next workshop, we are going to be working with our Ancestors and loved ones in spirit, seeing what messages they want to bring to us at this time of year when grief can be so raw and our loved ones are very much drawing close. We will be working with the medium of clay this time, and I am very excited to see what we co-create.
